So, I am wasted at 3 pm in the afternoon. I rather be fucked up now than at 8pm saying, "Oh shit! I have to work in the morning!" There is nothing quite like being smashed and having to draw something for class. I think this is going to go over really well. I will post the final product on my myspace page. Not like anyone is going to look at it, but why the fuck not?!
I think people get fucked up to numb themselves from something that is fucking with them. I have always had a problem with being alone, but I am getting use to it more and more. I always said that even when around a crowd of muthafuckas, I was still alone. It was totally my choice to be alone, but damn! Did it have to come to this? It feels as if everyone left me. No one liked dealing with Kelly's persona, but they still didn't come around.
The people I want to be around, can't, don't want to, or find someone else "better" to be around. I thought going to school would do something fucking awesome for me, but all it did was add to the stress. Fuck it, I am going to go drink more beer. Self loathing is one thing, but wondering about something that you have an answer for is another.
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